What a simple dot :)

Growing up.

2010-02-07T19:36:00.005+08:00

ARUNA, START BLOGGING AGAIN YOU BITCH!

Okay i will :)

So now, I've been reading all my old posts and I've realized, soooo many things have changed in the past year. Now i wouldn't say it's a bad thing, But I've not seen the good in it all yet.

However, Here's to all the assholes I've ditched. You know who you are:)

I want to go back to who i used to be, Trust is never important and it's a completely different thing from Love.

Those who have yet to see the difference, This is the root to all your problems kids. Humans are suckers, we live to disappoint. So STOP expecting, stop acting like you're in some elite group of holier than thou oldies.

We suck. Embrace it and just live.

So i recently came across several pictures of me and a certain someone, and dammn it makes me depressed. She wasn't an asshole i wanted to ditch. Shit happens.

I really wish things didn't end up so screwed up. Love sucks. Learn Aruna, Learn.

However. i'm not going to regret my past. Move along,Move along!

So recent matters, I've got some eye problem which interfered ONCE AGAIN with my exams. I couldn't go for my final exam as i have scratches in my cornea or whatever. Bad Bad timing.

Which leads me back to last time! I got food poisoning smack on the day of my maths O

levels and therefore failed my maths and had to retake the next year. That was a very bad time for me, IMAGINE repeating a year just because i fell SICK. Fml!

Another situation was during 1st year, 1st semester when someone very close to me passed away SMACK on the first day of exams. Horrible day it was. I went to school on the day itself, traumatized and depressed. Needless to say i barely passed my exam and every other exam after that.

AND NOW, My 2nd semester exam, I can't see with one eye. Seriously FML. JUST FUCK IT. It's annoying, i feel like i shouldn't even waste my time studying.

And i have another problem, Which i can't say because this stupid blog is public. I'm seriously thinking of making it private. Should I? Argh.

This two idiots in Australia, i miss):

update!

2010-01-27T21:45:00.001+08:00

So the last time I posted I was so excited as Kash and Krissy were in town. Another cool thing happened, My good friend Revathi and her cousin came back from Australia too. So the past few weeks were super fun!

However, i had to cut school and work almost continuously. So now, i have to buck up and start going to school on time and stay THE WHOLE DAY and then go to work. No MC-ing nomore!

So yes when Revathi and Vini were here, we went crazy! The drinking, the Shisha-ing, Truth or dare. Wild shit! But it was all good fun. Not to mention, I and Vini got close. Like reaaal close! Haha fun fun! But they had to leave to go back to Australia, and I miss the BAD! Like Real bad.

But we’re keeping in contact. Thank god for being in Republic Poly and having the luxury of laptops :)

So I’ve definitely been slacking in my studies and I reeeeally got to start doing better before they make me repeat my modules! Argh..

I seriously miss someone, and I wish that someone was here with me, like seriously ):

I’M IN LOVE :D

HAHAHHAHAHAHHA

update update!

2010-01-12T12:44:00.002+08:00

It's been sooooooooo long since i updated, i know!

This holidays was CRAAAA-AAAP.

I worked, worked WORKED LIKE BUTT, and on my free days[ which was very few] i hung out with my adorable cousins.

KASH &KRISSY ARE IN TOWN! -jump around, jump around-
Saradha's making it all better :)

I'd really hate for her to leave, but she'd leaving this friday )':

OH AND I LOVE MY BITCHES! <3
They make me happy with the shisha-ing and the Dare or Dare. ;D

Wooohoooo babay!

I seriously need to go shopping. Cottonon forgot to pay me )':

All my hard work...

But all in all, it's a good life!

I feel like i'm really growing up :)

I just wish i had more time for my mom and my Jacky ):

I've made up my mind.

2009-12-23T22:55:00.002+08:00

Yes you heard it :)

I working my butt off and putting my social life on hold to make idiots i don't care shit for proud. And why? BECAUSE OF YOU.

I didn't want to hurt you at all, like as if i owed you something. pfft.

I'm a total idiot now aren't i ?

So i've made up my mind. I've chosen. Now how do i make things right with the person who ever truly bothered in the first place? I chose to diss the one who cared for a complete loser.

shit shit shit. Why do i ALWAYS PICK THE WRONG PERSON ?

Now i know things are screwed with the good one. Should i make things better with the good one or ditch the bad one first?

And believe me, when i ditch you and you're all alone, don't you dare come running back to me.

I'm not so forgiving :)

2009-12-23T21:51:00.000+08:00

Real strength lies in the depths of any wound we have survived.

meaningful quote :)

2009-12-21T12:29:00.001+08:00

“There are so many hammocks to catch you if you fall, so many laws to keep you from experience. All these cities I have been in the last few weeks make me fully understand the cozy, stifling state in which most people pass through life. I don’t want to pass through life like a smooth plane ride. All you do is get to breathe and copulate and finally die. I don’t want to go with the smooth skin and the calm brow. I hope I end up a blithering idiot cursing the sun—hallucinating, screaming, giving obscene and inane lectures on street corners and public parks. People will walk by and say, “Look at that drooling idiot. What a basket case.” I will turn and say to them “It is you who are the basket case. For every moment you hated your job, cursed your wife and sold yourself to a dream that you didn’t even conceive. For the times your soul screamed yes and you said no. For all of that. For your self-torture, I see the glowing eyes of the sun! The air talks to me! I am at all times!” And maybe, the passers by will drop a coin into my cup.”

crazy ramblings. don't read, seriously.

2009-12-16T00:41:00.003+08:00

I feel the need to blog although it's super late.

I just finished reading this book and it's left me with a urge to break free from this crazy place we call home.

I hate it, i hate that we have a tight-wound system.

I hate it that we are all conformists. Lets face it, even i am, no matter how hard i try to rebel against the system. I'm still in school aren't i?

Education is important i agree, but i'm Eighteen now and if i were to die, what am i going to be remembered for?

I'm a normal teen who lived a normal life, in love with my dog, in poly at the right age and shit. WHAT ELSE?

nothing. My life is NOT going to leave a mark.

I also hate the hustle and bustle of city life. HATE IT. I need peace at least for awhile. I want to do something crazy, i want to move away. Out of this country, away from these people. I'm sick of it, i'm sick of working for nothing. I'm sick of conforming to nothing. I'm sick of studying for nothing. I'm sick of not being able to choose. I'm so sick of being a robot. I wanna say i'm lesbian out and proud and not have anyone staring at me. [ Note to self: I'm not lesbian. This is just an example.]

I hate it when people think i'm a bimbo. I FUCKING HATE IT. Like i want to burn you people down. Can you win me in a tug-of-war of words? High chances NO.

I hate it when people treat me like i'm a kid. I am not a kid.

So what if i have dreams? WHY ARE YOU JUDGING ME?

Dreams are the reflection of your future, without it WHY THE SHIT are you studying ?

Seriously, i want to move away.

Get out of this fucked up place we call home with all this plastic facades and robots manufactured to serve. I want to go to a place that is real. Non-judging and simple.

Books do weird things to me, i swear.

First day of work :)

2009-12-11T15:21:00.002+08:00

So the first day of work was so super tiring, however, I met such nice people there :)

And a mega BITCH TOO. [She was a customer..]

She came in, messed up the clothes, started stripping in the store[fo real!] when i told her that fitting room was close, and pushed a whole rack of clothes down and created a SHIT LOAD OF MESS. Hope she dies.

So ANYWAYS,

The job requires constant moving, real strenuous & i got a head ache in the middle of work which caused so much discomfort ):

I went home at almost 12, and i realised that i was having a fever hence the headache.

I'm still having a splitting head ache btw, i can't believe i made it to school today.

I'm sooo tired, and this head ache is killing me but we have a test at 4.30 so i can't leave. I swear i'm crying inside while talking blogging.

Tomorrow there's a briefing at Novena regarding my job at 8 a.m.

Lovely.

don't think

2009-12-11T15:19:00.001+08:00

This is for a certain DU_ that i know. You know who you are <3

& i so go by this shit!

fear

2009-12-08T21:13:00.001+08:00

Did you not know that there is such a thing? -insert judgmental stare here -

puke..puke

2009-12-08T20:59:00.002+08:00

I kept it cool and went all the way home while dying slowly inside.

The minute i reached home, i puked and puked and puked and now i'm feeling more fucked up than usual.

I hate being sick.

cough..cough..

2009-12-08T11:26:00.002+08:00

I'm down with the flu and a fucking irritating cough but here i am in school. School's pretty relaxed today but i hate hate HATE the air conditioner here.

I'm dying, i swear.

I've realized that i'm so needy when i'm sick. HAHHAHHA!

Media script writing was super boring. Why the hell would i want to know about the chemical weapons made from marine life.

YOU CAN DO THAT?!!

But BUT BUT.. IT's so wrong. The poor marine life creatures are used to make weaponry.

So poor thing.

SCREW YOU ALL. LOL!

I'm rambling cos i'm sick... ):

uh huh

2009-12-07T13:14:00.001+08:00

UH HUH! Why do people think so much about everything? If you think it's right just go for it!

I hate waiting ):

ironic

2009-12-05T21:59:00.002+08:00

I miss you like fuckassshit.

&i have no mood to blog.

Can i run away now?

& i love tumblr. Me wanna join :)

<3 cottonon more

2009-12-04T10:54:00.002+08:00

I think my first day of work at CottonOn is tomorrow :S

I'm not sure,

But i seriously am hoping that this job would not be as bad as the Coffee Club one.

Hope the people are nice :D

Keeping my fingers crossed :)

so damn tired

2009-12-03T21:11:00.000+08:00

FUCK THE RJ,

CURSE THE FACI,

DON'T GO TO SCHOOL.

i wish.

mala&me

2009-12-02T18:26:00.002+08:00

Yesterday me and THE AMAZING MALA went for the CottonOn Induction thing.

Later on, we went to mos burger for lunch/dinner [ I forgot the time! ]

and just sat there rotting for many hours till like eight?

It was super fun and i miss spending time with THE AMAZING MALA :D

I've started talking to an old friend after like heaven-knows-how-long :)

I'm becoming mature and i'm forgiving :D

Ok screw it, I may be nice to you but the only thing that runs through my head when i talk to you is

"Don't ever trust a hoe."

haha! I may not trust but don't worry,

You're kinda cute, I still like you :)

EAGLE!

2009-11-30T11:08:00.003+08:00

I SAW AN EAGLE OUTSIDE MY HOUSE !!

That's fucking cool, like a bald eagle :O

But my mum said it might swoop down at my poor Jacky so i chased Jacky away!

HAHAHA

I SWEAR IF AN EAGLE SWOOPED DOWN TO CATCH MY DOG, I'LL ROAST IT :D

So says the animal lover[Me!]

Stopped the rain

2009-11-28T23:42:00.002+08:00

Just came back from a long day with the girls. It was so super fun and i really missed them :)

Weirdly, we didn't camwhore today at all so there I have a picture of me with my m&m bracelet.

We were planning the bbq that we're having for my sister, Soniyah and me at the end of December which as of now has become exclusive. Which means we've canceled our original never ending guest list and we've made it more private. :D
Yay more food for me ! :)))

So now i'm fucking tired and i'm going to sleep.

Good night!

OH AND I CAN'T WAIT FOR NEW MOON.

Edward my love... :)

Edwina Hayes- feels like home

2009-11-27T17:28:00.002+08:00

If you knew how lonely my life has been

And how long I've been so alone

And if you knew how I wanted someone to come along

And change my life the way you've done.

It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me
It feels like I'm all the way back where I come from
It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me
It feels like I'm all the way back where I belong

A window breaks, down a long, dark street
And a siren wails in the night
But I'm alright, 'cause I have you here with me
And I can almost see, through the dark there is light

Well, if you knew how much this moment means to me
And how long I've waited for your touch
And if you knew how happy you are making me
I never thought that I'd love anyone so much

It feels like home to me,

Feels like i'm all the way back where i come from.

I miss you so much.

Edward my love

2009-11-27T12:57:00.002+08:00

I AM SO IN LOVE WITH EDWARD CULLEN!

I KNOW LIKE I'M TOO LATE AND THE TREND IN CLOSE TO OVER BUT OMFG HE IS SO DAMN HOT.

However, notice i said i'm in love with Edward Cullen and not Robert Pattinson ?

I'm in love with his character and the way he looks in the movie.

-SWOONS, HYPERVENTILATES AND DIES-

freethinker

2009-11-25T22:09:00.002+08:00

Freethinker: Somebody who refuses to accept established views or teachings, especially on religion, and forms opinions as a result of independent inquiry.

So although unrelated [in my opinion], I had a question thrown at me.

If i were to die, what would i do?

-smacks forehead-

If i were to die, I DIE. Me being a freethinker doesn't change a thing.

Ok i know what she's getting at, she's wondering if for a minute i would pray to god or accept my religion or ask for a proper burial.

The matter of fact is, Me wanting a proper burial or whatsoever is just my superficialness. [Nothing to do with religion]

And if i were to pray to god to save me, that's just a mere act of selfishness which i won't do as i've lived my life pretty much prayer-less.

Oh and as a freethinker, i have the right to change my mind about pretty much anything as and when i like and i'll always have a good reason why.

Don't question me. I accept your beliefs , so you accept mine.

maskedmurderer

2009-11-25T19:35:00.002+08:00

Meet Sheirin along with Pyeong. My bitch mates :)

Pyeong had to wear a mask because of her incessant coughing ):

Today was boring btw.

I hate that dude, he annoys me sooooo much.

I wish him dead. I'm not even kidding you.

Oh and i seriously miss someone.

Take a guess? )):

creative concepts

2009-11-24T19:20:00.003+08:00

Anyways today's class was super fun as we had Creative Concepts and the problem statement was,well, creative? :D

So we decided to make a puppet show/stage. We bought like poster paint and made it so prettay! Plus, it was super fun working with my super fun team mates XD

LOL, super unglam. But fun nonetheless.

RJ: Share an instance when you have experienced creativity in an unexpected manner.

WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO SAY?

I HAVE NO CREATIVITY IN MY LIFE ):

and then

2009-11-23T20:49:00.002+08:00

And then i realise, that my life is ending one minute at a time.

There's no fucking time for regret.

through whatever ;)

2009-11-23T17:35:00.002+08:00

I'm upset because i feel like I've wasted around 2 years of my life with someone who was so darn wrong for me. If only i knew this before, i know there are so many things i could have done different/better.

So now, i'm stuck here feeling so alone and I don't know how to deal.

whore

2009-11-22T19:32:00.002+08:00

I'm finally done with my blog.

Ooooh i like all the colours!

BUT i've noticed something,

I'm so not a camwhore!

I don't have alot of proper recent pictures of myself alone.

TIME TO BE A WHORE.

Btw, I'm currently stuck on this super sexy song that's playing in my blog right now.

If y'all think it sucks, stfu ):

I'm not emo

2009-11-20T19:41:00.004+08:00

I'm random & chances are, a lot of random stuff i scribble here don't mean no shit.

I want to move to life journal! =D

It looks so prettay, but i'm lazy.

Finally end of the week, i need to do my nails. Fucking ugly )':

I'm not missing anyone right now.

I feel the calmest when i don't feel anything :D

YAY ME.

And Jennifer is like the sexiest name alive right now.

if i were to die

2009-11-19T20:47:00.006+08:00

Remember for the for the good things I've done.

I swear I'm beautiful inside xD

And i love everyone to bits.

AND AND AND!

If i were to die,

I want my dog Jacky to be there.

Don't y'all like shut him in a room because i SWEAR i'll come back from the dead and rip your heads off.

I want good music, music I WILL like.

Because my funeral is MY FUNERAL. Not yours, sorry :D

It's my fucking day to shine.

SISTER, dress me up pretty.

Don't MAKE me wear something i'd rather puke on.

I want my coffin to be pretty and white.

AND EVERYONE STAYS VEGETARIAN FOR WEEKS IF NOT I'LL PUNCH Y'ALL.

Reason being?

SAVE THE ANIMALS GOOD HEARTED HUMAN BEINGS!

If i don't look good, DON'T YOU DARE TAKE ANY PICTURES!

Thank you :)

And where was i?

I'M BEAUTIFUL INSIDE. LOVE ME TO BITS PLEASE?

Good night and my head pain has subsided cos I've downed 2 Panadol pills and it's making me feel so fucking dizzy \m/

<3 cottonon

2009-11-19T18:44:00.003+08:00

I've got the job! I've got the job!

<3>

Now i'll have to wait for December 5 :DDDDDDDDDDDD

That damn headache is back though, so i've no mood to jump in joy ):

Fucked up head pain.

I miss school like seriously. Can't wait for tomorrow! :D

bananaismissed

2009-11-18T14:08:00.002+08:00

I MISS SARADHA THE BANANA.

I KNOW YOU'RE READING THIS.

I MISS YOU BITCH! D:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOVE :)

2009-11-18T13:52:00.006+08:00

LOVEBIRDS <3

I'M A NERD.

Yesterday was soniyah's Birthday! WOO!

So Vik decided to make it a surprise birthday party and we had to go collect the cake.

HAHA!

Stupid responsibilities were too much to handle!

LOL.

At last we were late, SORRY VIK!

So we celebrated her birthday, which became kind of a mess!

I apologize to the republic poly cleaners :D

Then we decided to camwhore all the way and reminisce about secondary school life.

I miss Seconday school. I think i was so super cute and fun IN THE PAST )':

NOW I'M EMO _|_

)':

2009-11-18T12:42:00.005+08:00

Summary:

I skipped on Monday [ I was seriously sick you skeptics! ]

I reached school super late on Tuesday, like at 10.15am. [ I was still a sick mess :D ]

I skipped school today as i have absolutely no voice.

I HAVE to skip school tomorrow to go for the Cotton On Xmas casuals interview.

I HAVE TO GO SCHOOL ON FRIDAY AS IF NOT, I MIGHT AS QUIT SCHOOL _|_

I hate being sick ):

OH OH AND THIS THING CAME OUT FOR ONE OF MY EXAMS!!

It's so damn saaaaaaaaaaaaaaad )':
I'm so fucking against fur i tell you!
Why is an animals life inferior to ours?
Do it to a human, it's a "horrific murder" and the man is sentenced to death.
But isn't an animal more of an innocent?
Isn't it more harmless and defense less?

BOYCOTT FUR!!

this da shit

2009-11-13T20:30:00.000+08:00

You wonder why I don't talk to you anymore and please believe me when I say it's not that I don't want to, it's just that everything I want to say I can't tell you anymore.

Of course, you're going to get your heart broken. And it isn't just going to happen once, but a lot. That's just part of growing up, and it makes you stronger. Then you can handle it better next time. You may not get through it yourself, but your friends will help you through it. And you'll be a stronger person because of it. Then one day someone will come along, and it'll all pay off and no one will ever break your heart again.

paranormal activities

2009-11-12T20:55:00.002+08:00

WHAT A FUCKING AWESOME MOVIE!

I GOT SO FREAKED OUT.

WATCHED IT WITH PYEONG , WHO ALMOST CRIED.

HAHAHHAHA!

AWE-SOME.

Dun, we go watch Case 39 k ? :D

chicken

2009-11-09T21:36:00.002+08:00

Did the chicken come first, or the egg?

The chicken came first. Everything was in adult form when they were first created on earth.They were thrown down onto earth from the heavens.

No, i don't believe in evolution. Problem?

& Chickens can't fly!?!

Although they have wings. WHY!? WHY!?

No wonder they're commonly eaten by us, they can't escape )':

2009-11-08T02:08:00.001+08:00

I think i'm falling for you. _|_

headpain ):

2009-11-06T18:31:00.002+08:00

I've popped two pills in lesser than an hour,

this headache is not hurting any lesser. In fact, i feel like my head's going to explode.

And i don't know why.

Guess i better get off the laptop. It's only making me feel worse.

Seriously fml. I can't even study.

2009-11-06T15:20:00.001+08:00

HEAD PAIN HEAD PAIN HEAD PAIN HEAD PAIN!!!

I want to go home ):

2009-11-06T12:50:00.002+08:00

Good music blasting,

I've done my part for the ppt. So hence, i'm stoning.

But something someone said has been ringing in my ear since 2 days ago.

"I'm so sick of being in love"

I agree.

Pyeong and I were talking during break,

We've concluded that i get over people way too damn easily.

Why, i wonder..

I guess it is kind of a gift right.

I miss Nad, Karl, Pavi. The whole damn group!

I MISS THAT BLAADDY IDIOT WHO HAS MOVED TO AUSTRALIA.

When are you coming back bitch!? ):

Anyways my b'day was fuck long ago, but i'm saying it now.

Thanks for dedicating a birthday post to me, beloved :)

I'm so late, i know.

i

2009-11-05T20:11:00.004+08:00

I'm upset.

I need someone to talk to.

I need a hug.

I want to cut my hair off, i want to burn my face off.

I want to move away.

I need a new identity.

I've never been an introvert-ish person.

Never ever.

But now i'd prefer to be alone.

I want to hide away, in my own world.

I don't want to talk, i don't want to smile.

I don't want to explain myself anymore.

I need a hug.

I need a mother.

I need a break.

I need a new identity.

2009-11-05T19:05:00.002+08:00

Psychology test - FaceBook.

Mysterious.Oftentimes, a loner. You know your true friends and only they are allowed to understand the real you.

You hide your emotions. Sometimes pretending to be always happy. Sometimes, not giving even a hint of what you really feel.

You love deeply. You may flirt along and people think you’re a playboy/playgirl but the truth is: your heart belongs to only one.

You appreciate simple things in life. You hate complicating things that’s why you’re typically up-front in any aspect.

You’re an ideal boyfriend/girlfriend. You don’t care if your partner doesn’t really love you as long as you love him/her. You give your all.

You’re undoubtedly good-natured! Most of the time, people are confident to approach you because they know you will consider them.

You love actions, with the hero-like taste! You focus on your strengths and use them to protect persons/things that are important to you.

Now, i'm not usually a believer of these things.

BUT WOW, THIS SHIT IS ACCURATE!

Less than 2 months till the end of this year :)

2009-11-03T20:12:00.002+08:00

I can't believe this year is going to end in like 2 months!

There's many things i have to be thankful for. The people i met this year, the experiences i had.

It can never be replaced :)

Then again, the worst and the best took place this year.

I miss her, my hero.

I know she's in a better place.

And i know that we've all emerged stronger from that tragedy.

I've never imagined a new year, a birthday, a graduation, or whatever else without her.

But this is reality and it's cruel.

Here's to the good people i met, the assholes i ditched, the ways i've grown, the new shit i've learnt[ LANCHIAOO !],

Here's to the good times we shared, the bad times i cried alone :D

Woo. The new year, i wish from the bottom of my heart it'll be better than this year.

2009-11-02T21:29:00.001+08:00

I want to hurt you just to hear you scream my name.

speak good english :)

2009-11-02T20:00:00.006+08:00

Our convos are damn lame lar, i know

Today wasn't as bad as i thought it would be.

If only i can fast forward a year or two,

this would all just be a joke.

I'm sick of games, i'm sick of drama.

I really am growing up =)

I'm doing the right thing now.

But it still makes me feel worse than shit.

Where's the fucking time machine when i need it?

Pyeong keeps me happily distracted with her quirkiness!

The whole class is crazy. I like it!

Btw, I want a tony&guy haircut. Someone sponsor pls?

I also want to go shopping. walao <-- note the singlish.

I want to stop the singlish i have got going on.

START TO SPEAK GOOD ENGLISH AS OF NOW!

... NOW NOW ..

post number 3

2009-11-01T21:50:00.000+08:00

In a sentence of love, oftentimes you have to put a period on something that has to end and not just settle on a comma. In time, you will realize that it's nicer to see a complete sentence rather than a phrase that's completely hanging and doesn't even make any sense."

WHOA DIS DA SHIZ!

there goes my hero

2009-11-01T20:54:00.010+08:00

When i'm heartbroken,

My ego stops me from bleeding.

When i'm in pain.

My ego stops me from crying.

When i need love,

My ego stops me from needing.

There goes my hero,

yet i'm still not hurting.

Bless that ego.

For without it,

I'm every other girl.

a long day

2009-11-01T18:20:00.003+08:00

Mugging for exams.

Yay me for being such a responsible bitch this semester.

I am growing up =D

I've been having a horrible headache since many days ago,

and it's getting worse by the day.

And i'm trying to study like this -_-

Good luck, me.

Jealousy, turning saints into the sea

Swimming through sick lullabies

Choking on your alibis

But it's just the price I pay

Destiny is calling me

Open up my eager eyes

'cause I'm Mr. Brightside

2009-10-31T22:32:00.000+08:00

You love me the best, when i'm a mess.

SCORPIO

2009-10-30T23:54:00.000+08:00

Your date with the Scorpio could be heaven or hell depending on the Scorpio's mood. Scorpio people are intense, ardent, passionate and extremists. They do not like indefinite or gray situations. Scorpios have a very strong intuition that will allow them to perceive the results of any situation before it occurs, and it will also help them discover the lies told by people around them.

People born under the sign of Scorpio are very noble and direct with their opinions. Their ruling planets are Mars and Pluto, which will endow them with great energy and make them invincible in every aspect. However, they can lose their patience easily and their explosions of anger are fearful.

Scorpio Dating Tip:
Don't try to fool the Scorpio. Be honest and straightforward on your date. Scorpio people love strong, decisive, and ambitious persons, full of initiative. They need a continuous, daily and hourly relationship. Love will lead them into passionate situations. Another dating advice: Open yourself up and be original. Don't be too conservative on your first date and go with the flow.

I'M SUCH A SCORPIO. -_-

If you're happy and you know it, stfu.

2009-10-30T23:05:00.004+08:00

Girls should follow beyonce's rules in that one song, " Irreplaceable".

Follow ONE SIMPLE RULE.

READ IT.

PRACTICE IT.

I can have another you in a minute.

- Beyonce

Don't make someone your everything.
Don't trust someone too much.
ALWAYS make sure, you have substitutes.
Stop expecting the best, always expect the worst.
Keep yourself at a distance.
DON'T EVER COMMIT.

I can have another you in a minute.

There's no better revenge than that of doing unto others, what was done unto you.

I can have another you in a minute.

If you're not a dreamer, you'd agree. If life was a game, i'm getting out alive and well.

headpain

2009-10-29T21:36:00.002+08:00

I'm so stressed what with Ut's coming up and the new modules irritating me.

A lot of things are screwing up, I seriously need to go out with my bitches.

Y'all hearing me anot!?

Something is seriously wrong if the 1 person you expect to be there for you,

is missing.

I hate it when BFF's screw up.

Next time i should just write it everywhere, i want CASUAL FRIENDS. That's all. -_-

Oh & the main reason i don't date guys?

High chance i won't like y'all anyway, so why bother right? :|

And don't get me wrong,

It's not y'all, it's me. :)

truth

2009-10-23T09:55:00.001+08:00

Might as well tell the truth ♥

i never have proper titles.

2009-10-21T20:47:00.003+08:00

I'mm soooooo tired today, i can't even explain.

AMANDA BITCH AND I ARE TRYING TO SYNCHRONIZE OUR OUTFITS!

AHAHA,

NO HOPE LA.

We have a lack of clothes.

I NEEEDD TO SHOPP!

I have the money, i need the time!

Sheesh,

I feel like burning everything in my closet. I feel like jumping into that very closet and dying.

I fucking hate school, don't get me wrong.

I fucking love my class! XD

BUT I hate early morning studying time.

ANDD ANNDDD!

I HAVE THE MOST FUCKED UP FACI NAMED CHAN KH OR WHATEVER FUCK.

SATAN'S BFF. SCREW YOU FOR MAKING LIFE HELL.

HOPE YOU BECOME IMPOTENT AND START SCREWING DOUGHNUTS FOR PLEASURE.

_|_

Then again, i like doughnuts :\

w14e <3

2009-10-19T19:17:00.003+08:00

Funny classmates took many pics of themselves on my lappy when i was out.

Put it as my wallpaper and freaked the hell out of me!

Funny shit lar! XP

):

2009-10-19T15:47:00.002+08:00

Today's Rj question:

Are there some destructive patterns in your life? Elaborate on how they ended up as part of your life.

Need i say more? XD

FB Status:

I DON'T LIKE MEN AND PROBABLY NEVER WILL. Gay pride.

xo.

Msn pm:

Tap that ass! ;D

I have many destructive patterns in my life. Now how do i put it down in a way that faci doesn't think i'm nuts? :S

Class is great, Finally opening up?

Crazy bitches with crazy class convos and good music ;D

Me likey!

And Pavithra idiot will make me wait TILL THE END OF TIME! :O

QUICK QUICK QUICK QUICK QUICK! )':

DUN IS A SPAMMER, BUT LOVE YOU TOO DUNBUTT.

happy diwali

2009-10-16T23:19:00.002+08:00

Yay.

Diwali is here, not so fun though.

Mum's angry, Dad's missing. Rest asleep. Jacky keeps barking at neighbours. Brother is sick.

I'm upset and too skinny.

The house is too silent, doesn't feel so festive :\

Happy Diwali people!

Enjoy :)

sick

2009-10-13T20:57:00.002+08:00

I feel so sick today,

Had to do a skit/play/ whatever thingy..

REALLY WISH I WAS NOT SICK!

It would've been more fun ):

Left class early, Practically crawled home.

Mood-less once again, Great right?

Waiting to sleep. I'm bored.

Hope i won't be sick tomorrow. ah fuck.

Crush-Love?

2009-10-12T12:08:00.002+08:00

Crush- Temporary romantic infatuation
Nuff' said.

Love- Permanant romantic infatuation?
I believe nothing in life is permanant so therefore, maybe it just lasts longer than crush?

This issue irks me,
People say love is not infatuation.
So what is it ?
It's Real ? Well, How do you know ?

Seriously,
Is there that much of a difference between love and crush other than the amount of time it lasts?
If there is,
How do you feel the difference?
I NEED TO KNOW.

Oh btw,
I'm sick, Skipped school
Therefore bored and thinking of useless crap like what the one mentioned above.
but seriously,
I NEED TO KNOW! :D

all i want

2009-10-11T18:41:00.002+08:00

Too many times, I have wanted

To turn around and walk away

Knowing deep inside, you can't provide

What I need from you, anyway

Do you know?

It doesn't change

The way I feel 'bout you, at the end of the day

'Cause I know

That all I want is what you got

MENTAL LOGA

2009-10-10T21:36:00.002+08:00

LOGA IS A CRAZY PSYCHOTIC KUKU!

I know you're reading for sure,

I'm keeping everything "in my heart" ! LOL!

PODA NAAAYIIIIII!!
Go go, be a small kid! GO.

I'm gonna go MIA cos of youuuuuu..
AND I'M NOT TOO SKINNY. YOU STOP SMOKING FIRST BITCH.
AHAHAHAHHAHA
=D

weight issues solved

2009-10-09T22:11:00.001+08:00

ARUNAAAAAAAA GAINNNN SOMEEEEE WEEEIGHTTTTTTT!

GAAAAIN SOME WEEEEIGHTTT BITCH GAAAAIN IT NOWWWW!

I'm still fucking skinny, so leave me alone now. Thanks.

a world with no identity;

2009-10-09T13:32:00.002+08:00

A world with no identity has no:

Taste, it

Has no texture, it

Has no appearance.
A world with no identity,

Is a world with,

No one.

i'm in school and i'm bored

2009-10-09T09:11:00.002+08:00

I didn't even talk about my new class did i !?
Well, i'm in W14E.

Not bad i guess? Lol, I don't know anyone here actually.
But we are all afiliated by friends friends and blah for sure.
Still abit weirdly quiet but it's just the first week, so still have time :D
I'M weirdly quiet here. WHY ?
Stupid stupid, I'm waiting for myself to go back to normal.

I really really REALLY miss W47N,
Damn i shouldn't have skipped so much last semester. arghh.

another happy post :|

2009-10-08T18:59:00.002+08:00

As much as I would like to think I'm a nice person, I'm not.

No really, I'M NOT.

I screw up ALOT,

I push people away even if they want to help me,

I'm so unstable even i get confused,

I hurt the people I'm closest to,

Why? Why you might ask?!?!

Easy,

I'm a psychotic bitch feeding on other people's pain for my own cheap ass thrill.

I'm gonna be burning in hell for this.

aah

2009-10-03T20:40:00.002+08:00

Just came back from the stayover at cuz place :)
So super fun, i love you cuzzies!

Had a talk with mum,
so mentally tired now.
Too many problems, too much weight on my shoulders.

I'm sick of pretending.
My fucking fake-smiles and plastic perkiness.

vivo

2009-09-30T01:08:00.000+08:00

Today was great,

Went to Vivo with Nad,Sis and the Dun !

Super fun la you idiots XD

But everyone in the whole wide freaking world will pair me and Dun up.

Why kids, Why !?

Went to the usuals,

Pet shop, Toys 'r' us, Daiso, Best Denki plus plus.

We can have fun anywhere XD

Oh, And had ice cream at Ben&jerry's

Love my Chunkymonkey! :D

I'm almost broke though.

Fuck.

happy birthday beautiful :)

2009-09-28T16:44:00.000+08:00

There's nothing greater than a mother's love.

Remember the good times we had?
Don't let life pass you by,
Weep not for the memories.

I remember a year ago,

We celebrated your birthday at my place.

Two families united as one,

Like how it supposed to be.

Saradha baked the cake,
we smeared chocolate pudding as icing on it,

And together we started singing.

This is one of the millions of memories of you running through my mind everyday.

We didn't take any pictures that day,

now i wish i did.

Pictures hold proof to memories,

Pictures could've captured the joy on your face.

Happy birthday to you,

my beautiful mother.

A year later,

so many things have changed,

But one thing that would never change,

is the eternal love we all have for you.

I know you're in peace now,

I should be happy and i swear i'll try to be.

I love you ma,

so so much..

dundot outing 2

2009-09-28T00:01:00.000+08:00

Distracted bitches.

Act- cute :D

I looked like shit, but he looked good. so cropped it! XD

Like the picture, hate me in it. ):

Yay another Dundot outing! XD

So Dun came to yishun interchange, HE WAS LATE ONCE AGAIN.

Oh, and i was late-r!

Met Yoges on the bus to yishun interchange,

emo-ed throughout the bus ride cos the poor child had a flu and fell asleep.

So finally met Dun, had no direction to wth we were going to do as usual!

So he decided he was hungry,

watched him eat cos i was on a diet.[ kidding, uptight losers:D]

Then we met Dun's friend,

Pretty girl named Belinda. :D

Dun acted like a clown. LOL!

Cute bitch as usual.

So when Belinda left,

we had pretty much nothing to do,

So we decided to go over to my place!

Dun wanted to see my dog and his perfectly formed ass.

Aww jacky :D

So brought Jacky and my laptop down!

Dun decided to walk my dog,

Kuku didn't know how to work the retractable leash!! ~ slaps hand to forehead.

But Dun learned fast!

So they went for a run, HAHA!

We met like 2 dogs and shit-knows-how-many cats,

But weirdly, Jacky behaved better then usual.

Maybe cos Dun kept scolding my poor baby ):

YOU WAIT TILL YOU GET YOUR DOG LA!

So we decided to play a game of "worm fighting" on my laptop.

LOL! I forgot the game's name la shits!

I won ONCE! AND I'M SO DARN FUCKING PROUD OF MYSELF!!

So i left the dog back at home and went back down to meet him, was like night at that point.

Dun helped clear my laptop off all the useless junk i had in it.

I wasss soooo bored, could've cried.

WHY CAN'T GUYS DOUBLE TASK!?

Well it was for the better i guess, cos my lappy is faster now!

Yay!

And then, to make me feel better we started camwhoring! WOO!

And hence the pictures above.

So after whoring-away,

We went to eat dessert at idk what time.

Chendol and some fruity limey thingy.

I didn't finish mine!

Sorry for wasting your money! ):

And finally, we bid farewell..

Poor guy had to endure such a loooong boring ride home.

Had so so much fun as usual!

Love you Dun-Dun!

Bestest friend in the whole wide world,

for those who got us mistaken!

THE UGLY TRUTH

2009-09-26T23:43:00.000+08:00

Finally cleared the air with someone very close to me today,

Today was great!
Reminiscing the old times,
knowing things will never be the same..
But it doesn't hurt anymore.

All we needed was closure :)

I forgot how comfortable i was with her,
Today we start with a clean slate so let's see how it goes..

So we went to see The ugly truth. :D
It was so nice AND TRUE.

Me :Guys are idiots [No offence!]
She: But it shows even the most "playa-ish" guy falls in love one day?
Me: Yeah whatever whatever.

In another conversation about the movie,
She:Y'know what is not fair?
Me: What?
She: The girl just ditches her bf for the jerk she loves! What a bitch!
Me: But she didn't love her bf whaaaaat! She made a mistake, and she's solving it :)
She: wtf la. You girls ahh..
Me. Just die la you.

ooh i love that bitch! XD

In conclusion: The ugly truth is GUYS AND GIRLS LOOK AT THE OUTSIDE FIRST.
LUST FIRST, LOVE LATER.
THOSE WHO BELIEVE IN LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT, GO SCREW A FAIRYTALE BOOK.
THE TRUTH IS UGLY, I KNOW. XD

arms of an angel

2009-09-22T20:47:00.000+08:00

You are pulled from the wreckage,

of your silent reverie.

You're in the arms of an angel,

May you find some comfort there.

In a summary

2009-09-22T19:04:00.000+08:00

Went to haw par villa with Hd, Carrot, Dun.
Travelled 1 hour and 30 minutes with the couple in some lame ass bus,
i got a headache and wanted to puke ):

Lucky thing for Raj and his mind boggling riddles! :D
I felt like a bimbo, probably my sister did too.
HAHA.
I had great jokes too.

Eg:
You are stuck in a room, with a paper, pen and a string.
The tap is running, and you'll drown in 15 secs.
What would you do?

Turn off the tap!
HAHAHHAHAHA!
Ok fine that was Dun's joke. :D

Anyways we ended up in BukitMerah int and met Dun,
Went to Mcdonalds for lunch, then took another long bus ride to Haw par Villa.
It was closed! -cries
So we took another long bus ride to vivo city, went to the pet shop again, then went to the top and sat there emo-ing off and talking crap.
Ooh i love vivo city <3

In another event, met my babes for an emergency chalet rescue mission!
Went to Republic poly,
to discuss and try to book a chalet for my sister, me, Soni, Nandhini's b'day bash! woo!

Sister found my old secondary school videos in her laptop.
GOD! I was such a perv!
But my video taking skills are too good :D

I really miss my secondary school days, as there were no worries about the future, relationships or anything serious really.
I was the textbook rebel and i had no worries.
With age comes responsibility.

Am i anorexic?

2009-09-20T17:52:00.000+08:00

The answer is no,
And NO I am not underweight,
NO I do not starve or do crash diets.

Here is my explanation for my size.
READ CAREFULLY.

I am petite,
I have a high metabolism,
I am short[ I admit.]
It might be genetic since both my parents used to be extremely skinny and/or small.

My rights.

I can run, jog and/or exercise,
Not because i have to but because i can.
[And those idiots who think i shouldn't be going jogging, screw you.]

I'm not going to die/faint or break into half if i skip a meal.

My size does not forbid me from drinking any kind of diet drink.

Sometimes i do count calories. Sue me.

Oh and yes, I can breathe properly and I have a good enough stamina.

If you can call me "Skinny as a bone", I can call you "Fat as a pregnant blue whale."

?

2009-09-19T14:15:00.000+08:00

Life's getting tougher and i need direction,
you were always my pillar of strength.

I want to think of you,

But i can't and i won't,
Because you make me want to cry.

I miss you and love you,
And i don't know how to let this go..

Rest in peace,
That beautiful smile.

And you've got a smile that could light up this whole town.

wth

2009-09-18T00:08:00.000+08:00

Dan sent me porn, What a womanizer. -_-

womanizer

2009-09-17T23:42:00.000+08:00

Womanizer
Woman- Womanizer
You're a womanizer

Oh womanizer

Oh you're a womanizer, DANNY.

dundot outing

2009-09-16T17:40:00.000+08:00

After like 3 weeks[!?!?!] i met the amazing Dun again.

And we had absolutely no idea what we were going to do out anyways.

Made him come to yishun cos i hate travelling alone XD

Yeah, call me a spoiled bitch! :D

Supposed to meet at 1.30 actually, i delayed it.

And lil old Dan had to make it sound like such a BIG DEAL and had the guts to even tell me

"No more delaying ahh".

Guess who was late at last? XD

Amazing Dun! Cute bitch dontknow how to be punctual! HAHAHAH.

Well i was late too. So we met at 4pm, i think.

And then, we were wandering around Northpoint listlessly.

Oh, i realised how boring yishun can be.. ):

So we decided to go to vivo city which was the original plan that i refused to follow!

HAHAHA.

And it's near dun's place, So he came to yishun for no damn reason.

And he brought me to a book store to the pet's guide section or whatever,

Because my dog controls me, not the other way around.

So now i've learned a thing or two on how to control my bitchface Jacky, whom i love :D

And then we went to a huuuuge pet shop, which is the best place on earth!

Other then the SPCA of course.

I'm a sucker for animals!! XD

I fell in love with a Corgi. It looked like that!!

How can anything loook that GODDAMN CUTEEEE!

OOMG.

That's my future puppy, once i get married or move out alone of course. XD

Meanwhile Dun was playing peek-a-boo with a Jack Russel.

Soooo cute both of them, HAHAHA!

Love at first sight i'm sure :D

Optimus prime and bumble bee or something?
I'm not sure which is which. I'm clueless! XD

Then we went to electronic stores i think!
And played video games, like some fighting games that he liked.
AND I SOO KICKED HIS ASS IN IT!
I won!! I won!! ~does a dance~
AHAHHAAHA!

I never thought i'd be playing video games with a guy and having fun!
Well i did! XD
And i can't wait to do it again!
HAHAH.
Then i after a looong looong fun day, i went home.
Rotting alone in the train for how long!? Cos i didn't want poor Dan to follow me to yishun again!
I'm soo sweet! :D

It was 11 when i reached home, was rotting with Dan on phone/msn.
Yeap we're nuts!

HAHAHA Love you Dan!

The bestest friend in the whole wide world of bestfriends! XD

BYEBYE NOW.

dilemma

2009-09-11T17:33:00.000+08:00

I've been so confused since my talk with sister a few nights ago.

I JUST realised that we're growing older now, practically adults,
And i shouldn't be taking things lightly anymore.

It's time to make decisions,
And i know what i'm afraid of,

What if something that i know is so wrong, feels so right?

stop the emo music!

2009-09-08T14:49:00.001+08:00

I don't understand why i'm allllllllllllll overrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr the place nowadays.

Either i'm seriously confused, or crazy.
More of the latter XD

This woman's work.

2009-09-07T12:36:00.000+08:00

I should be crying, but i just can't let it go,

I should be hoping but i can't stop thinking.

All the things we should've said,

That were never said.

All the things we should've did,

That we never did.

All the things you wanted from me.

All the things you needed from me.

All the things we should've given,

But i didnt.

Just make it go away.

This woman's work.

...

2009-09-03T16:29:00.001+08:00

I want to fade away.

Stop looking at me.

Antm

2009-09-02T21:07:00.000+08:00

So today was another day spent watching america's next top model.

It's a marathon i tell ya!
So what if looking at beautiful girls makes me feel like a loser? XD

So tomorrow is the interview and i'm super psyched!
Hopefully, i'll get the job!

And i seriously miss my class,Charmaine,Dun Dun and the girls!
I need the money rolling in... CAN'T WAIT CAN'T WAIT! :D

Insulting

2009-09-01T18:09:00.000+08:00

A m'sian muslim trampled on a severed cows head in a protest in malaysia.

That's so not cool. It supposed to insult hindus? I just pity the poor cow that died for no reason.

You want to stand up for your rights? That's great.

But killing and/or insulting any being for your own selfish reasons? So not cool.

<3 coffeeclub

2009-09-01T17:04:00.000+08:00

I GOT THE INTERVIEW!
I GOT THE INTERVIEW!!!!!!

-Jumps around like a crazy person-

wooo! I can almost taste the money! $_$

So broke.

2009-09-01T11:51:00.000+08:00

I need money!
I really really need money.

1) I have no more lens. Therefore i can't go out.
2) No transport money
3) NO MONEY AT ALL.

So even if i'm asked to go for a interview, I CAN'T!
Wth am i supposed to do?

I don't even know if i can make it for the girls outing like this.
FUCK.

When did i become so broke? When dad decided i wouldnt need ANY MONEY AT ALL for the holidays because i have no life and no needs at all.

FUCK FUCK FUCK.

And it's not like i'm not trying to get a job! The thing is, in order to have a job and hold on to it, you STILL NEED MONEY!
Transport money.

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK.

bored

2009-08-31T12:42:00.000+08:00

My adorable lil Jacky was licking his paws and standing in that position for sooo long!

I was like Wtf!

Everybody say "awwwwwwwwwww"!

I'm bored and i'm still looking forward to the job at CoffeeClub )=

Waiting for Pavi to wake up so i cant actually call the HR place to get an interview.

Can't wait Can't wait! =D

broke bitch

2009-08-31T00:08:00.000+08:00

So i went to my cousins' house today.

I miss Nicky and Sailu so so so much!

Ate alot, So much for not being fat):

I'm completely broke to the point of counting coins to get to my cuzzies place.

I'm pathetic!

To make things worse, CottonOn has moved to cwp!!

WTF!

When i'm completely broke!?

Now this should be god playing games with me. -_-

So to make myself feel worser, i went in to check out their stuff.

I'm this fucking close to selling myself for money!

HAHAHHAHA!

Just kidding!

But i remember me and Jamie talking about being social escorts..

HMMMM!

Ok, i'm still kidding so don't freak out!

I can't wait till i get my job, hopefully in CoffeeClub. Hais.

Yellow watermelons!

2009-08-30T13:46:00.000+08:00

Do you know watermelons can be yellow inside !?

OOOOOMG!

Fucking primary school

2009-08-29T00:29:00.000+08:00

It's too fucking early to be awake.
So why am i awake ?

Fucking primary school blasting their fucking music.
IS THIS THE TIME FOR A FUCKIN CARNIVAL?!

And the host can even scream into his mike for the neighbours to wake up.
WTF!
I wanna cut their fucking balls off. Assumind they're all male of course.

OH MY GOD! Primary school teachers and their lack of brains. FUCK Y'ALL! ):
Fuck fuck fuck..

Bimbo moments

2009-08-28T21:31:00.000+08:00

Today was weird.

Bimbo moment number 1

HD: Wow!The Lemons cost $1 each! Hey look, these packs cost lesser!

[Grabs it and waves it around enthusiastically.]

Nana: Those are not lemons -_-

HD: [Eyes glaze over..] Ohh..

Bimbo moment number 2

HD: I want bigger mangoes =[

Nana: They're infront of you! D:

HD: Those are papayas idiot!

Nana: Ohh.. XD

We suck ):

Mansluts

2009-08-28T13:13:00.000+08:00

Why are incorrigible flirts/playas so dumb?

You think you're cheating me, but in reality..

The only one in the losing end is you.

I can see right through you =)

Hokaido Ramen and Daddy dearest

2009-08-26T21:23:00.000+08:00

Just had dinner at a new food store called "Hokaido Ramen".

Yummy yummy! BUT as usual, i couldn't finish my food.

During dinner, Me, Daddy and my brother were talking about OF ALL THE THINGS,

Electricity!

Lol! And physics, and how even road sweeping involves physics.

It was so super fun! :D

HAHAHAH!

Oh and the best part of our conversation was when my daddy started boasting about what a great student he was last time.

I was like "BS!!" "I have a real life witness daddy!!"

Cos mum always used to joke about dad's tardiness and his rebellious streak in school.

Jumping out of the window and running for his life away from the teacher!

when he figured out that i knew the truth he snickered and looked away.

ADORABLE!

AAh! I love my crazy family !

I love w47n! ):

2009-08-26T18:23:00.000+08:00

He calls me "bones". I call him bitch. LOL!
Wifey !!
Toilet buddies -_-

Cute ass! During presentation. :D
Aidaaa!

My WIFE!!
Science was the best with my team. "own time, own target!"

Hidayuuuuu!
And me and sel. HAHA!

No angela ):

Ok the truth is, i really really am gonna miss w47n!

Met some real good people, really great memories!

Although i was absent or skipped class or came late almost half the time.

I really regret that now though!

Cos i really do think i missed out on alot!

ESP CLASS PICTURES!

sheesh!

I only wish for my class to be atleast half as good as this class was.

LOVE YOU BITCHES! ):

Exams are OVER!

2009-08-25T22:03:00.000+08:00

During our late night studying! :D

Guess what? I and Dan had our second argument! YAY!
And about the stupidest thing. LOL!

Other than that,
Exams are over,
Maths exam sucked. Not only did i have to do that fucked up exam, my number keys stopped working, so i was literally copying and pasting from other worksheets. SHEESH!

Well i have nothing to complain now.. holidays have arrived! :D
Ok fine, one thing to complain!
I'm completely broke )=
I seriously need a job and PLUS!
I miss the girls ):
Nadia, bananaaaa, karlps, pavi.. YOU BITCHES! Get out of your exam slum and MEET ME! :D

ok take care for now.
BTW: I and Dun are BESTFRIENDS lah bodohs. sheesh! :D

Death is brutal.

2009-08-23T20:49:00.000+08:00

Till today, I close my eyes and think of her.
The best thing that happened in my life.
I didn't realise it till she was taken away in the most detrimental manner.

Death is brutal. So fucking brutal.

I learnt in literature, the first emotion formed during grief is Denial.
WRONG.
The first emotion formed is Pure Anger.
At god, at myself, at the doctor.

Appreciate the people around you, because when they're gone it kills.. everyday.

20th may at around 1am or so,
When my life came crashing down.

Wants and Needs

2009-08-23T15:27:00.000+08:00

Fuck maths and microsoft excel.
Which i'm going to study now..

I can't wait for:

The next meet up to plan for the chalet!
Shopping for stuff for the chalet!
The chalet! The chalet! The chalet!

Oh and i need a job.

Chris Crocker MY LOVE!

2009-08-23T00:03:00.000+08:00

Is hot.

Why am i only turned on by gay guys? :(

WEED WEED!

2009-08-22T23:40:00.000+08:00

Dan wants to smoke weed!!!! And i want to join!!!

Dan says i can say "FUCK!" FUCK FUCK FUCK THIS FUCK THAT! FUCK THE WORLD! WOO!

I LOVE THE NEW AND IMPROVED COOLER VERSION OF THE DUN! :D

ugh

2009-08-21T16:56:00.000+08:00

I realised something today.

I am capable of screwing things up bad!

And I do not know how to handle other people’s emotions. ):

I’m so insensitive sometimes.

To the people I hurt:

I love y’all the most. I just don’t know how to show it. :\

Believe me ..

I and Danny had our first real argument yesterday!

( ok i'm not happy.. just it sounds cute? lol)

And today.. I got yelled at!

BUT i can be so bitchy so i deserved that i guess..

Today was "get pissed with nana" day for the world and "be an idiot" day for me.

So yeah ?

Life rocks

MY A!

2009-08-18T18:18:00.000+08:00

The cognitive faci gave me a A!!!

I take back all the mean things i said about her :D

I love you cognitive faci!!!!